Have you ever wanted to change your name, go incognito for a while, maybe do something that you've never done before but would never do as your normal self? I sometimes wonder what life would be like if I had chosen different paths. Don't get me wrong, I love my life- my husband, my children, my friends. But sometimes I wonder how things could have been if I made this decision or that a little bit differently. Would I still be the person I am today? Would I have different values? Would I like that person? For one day I think it would be neat to see what that life might have been like. What experiences would I have had that I might not ever experience now. Obvuiously we can't do that but sometimes it's fun to wonder.
Yesterday while doing schoolwork I told Emma (who is 5) to write her name at the top of her papers. Normally she does this without problems. Yesterday on both papers she wrote her name backwards: AMME I told her that she spelled her name backwards and that she should rewrite it the right way. She asked me why. I told her that her name was Emma, not Amme. she asked what AMME spelled. I told her that I guess it could spell "Amy". Her face lit up and she said, "Mama, I'm not Emma anymore, I'm Amy! I want you to call me Amy!" Savannah heard this and she decided that she was going to be Janie. So I called my girls Janie and Amy yesterday and they loved it. I guess it was like being a totally different person.
Sometimes I wonder what my kids will end up being and doing later in life. How can I help them understand that all their decisions they make ulitmately form them into the people they will become. I'm happy with the decisions I made but am always curious about those that I might have chosen differently if given the chance. I hope that they make the right decisions to become the wonderful people I know they are meant to be. I pray that "Amy" and "Janie" are only around for play and that all my kids learn to love the person they are and will become!
2 comments:
Is there anything you'd like to do over, or wish you had done?
I wish I'd gone to university. I know that would have changed my whole life (hubby, kids, etc...) but it's the one thing I wish I'd done.
Carol,
the two things I wish I had done differently were when my husband and I were first married we were young and we thought we knew everything. We got into some financial trouble that we could have gotten out of easily but we didn't want to ask for help as that would have been an admittance to failure on our part (and everyone was just waiting for us to fail!) So we tried to figure it out ourselves and made it worse. It took a really long time to get it worked out and I wonder if we could be in a different position now if we had never gone through that.
The second thing I wish I had done was to stand up to my father much earlier in life. It was so freeing once I took a stand and told him that he wouldn't run my life or my family. I wish I would have found that courage years and years ago. I think I have benefited from being stronger. It's amazing the self-confidence and self-respect that I gained from that!
There's not much else that I can think of that I would change, at least not big things. There are times I wish I would have kept my mouth shut or maybe even opened it to tell my feelings, but nothing really big but the above two. Thanks for asking!!! :)
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