Have you ever wanted to change your name, go incognito for a while, maybe do something that you've never done before but would never do as your normal self? I sometimes wonder what life would be like if I had chosen different paths. Don't get me wrong, I love my life- my husband, my children, my friends. But sometimes I wonder how things could have been if I made this decision or that a little bit differently. Would I still be the person I am today? Would I have different values? Would I like that person? For one day I think it would be neat to see what that life might have been like. What experiences would I have had that I might not ever experience now. Obvuiously we can't do that but sometimes it's fun to wonder.
Yesterday while doing schoolwork I told Emma (who is 5) to write her name at the top of her papers. Normally she does this without problems. Yesterday on both papers she wrote her name backwards: AMME I told her that she spelled her name backwards and that she should rewrite it the right way. She asked me why. I told her that her name was Emma, not Amme. she asked what AMME spelled. I told her that I guess it could spell "Amy". Her face lit up and she said, "Mama, I'm not Emma anymore, I'm Amy! I want you to call me Amy!" Savannah heard this and she decided that she was going to be Janie. So I called my girls Janie and Amy yesterday and they loved it. I guess it was like being a totally different person.
Sometimes I wonder what my kids will end up being and doing later in life. How can I help them understand that all their decisions they make ulitmately form them into the people they will become. I'm happy with the decisions I made but am always curious about those that I might have chosen differently if given the chance. I hope that they make the right decisions to become the wonderful people I know they are meant to be. I pray that "Amy" and "Janie" are only around for play and that all my kids learn to love the person they are and will become!